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Teri Youmans Grimm

Teri Grimm received her BFA in poetry at the University of Nebraska at Omaha and her MFA at Vermont College. Her poetry collection, Dirt Eaters, was chosen for the University of Central Florida’s contemporary poetry series. Her second collection, Becoming Lyla Dore, is upcoming from Red Hen Press.
Her writing has appeared in Prairie Schooner, Green Mountains Review, Indiana Review, South Dakota Review, Connecticut Review, Sugar House Review, and EAT, among other journals and anthologies. She is the recipient of a Nebraska Arts Fellowship and has been awarded residencies at Virginia Center for the Creative Arts and the Hambidge Center. She teaches in the University of Nebraska at Omaha’s low-res MFA program.

Excerpts

At Kalem’s Headquarters, the Roseland Hotel

Silence held sway over the room
when Mr. Olcott ran that bit of film.

I’d nearly forgotten that afternoon,
the day’s work completed, everyone stilled

by the swath of May’s suppressing heat.
Sun filled spaces between branches

and leaves of the sweet-gum I sat beneath,
eating strawberries from a tin. Henry, knowing

there was unused film left in the camera,
turned it on me, quietly, well not on me

exactly, but on the light and the way
it presented itself upon me.

I wanted to give him something else,
something more than a girl eating beneath

a tree, so I looked into the camera and thought
real thoughts. Henry raised his hand to shade

the glare from the white sandy path nearby
and I saw him smile at the effect it had.

No one paid any attention to us, him
learning how to manipulate light

and shadow into feeling. Me, learning
how to take feeling and speak it through

a gaze. Later, on that torn canvas screen,
in a room full of people who understood

or thought they understood the power
of an image moving, was a moment,

recognized by all of us, of what it means
to remember and be remembered.

Magic Lantern

Forget what you know about faded stars,
about curiosities and relics.
This is about magic.
Back when there was such a thing,
my father made a living
as a lanternist. I’d go with him
to The Imperial where between comedy reels
he’d show glass slides of the Taj Mahal
or lovers kissing in a Venetian gondola. Familiar
scenes too and after the flickering black and grey,
unexpected colors glazed the screen and one
could watch a frozen landscape deliquesce into spring,
lilacs move by a perceptible wind, a rabbit disappear
into a hole and the lake reacquainting everyone with blue.
There was a time before I was born,
my father was the whole damn show,
when the magic lantern made the common seem new.
But he was eclipsed by the Kinetoscope,
the Cinematograph, by a world
that seemed to spin only toward new
pleasures. Relegated to sing-a-longs
and advertisements, when my father flashed slides
for trusses, the local dentist, lyrics
to “Shine on Harvest Moon,” well, there was no magic
left then, was there? I was embarrassed
that what he had to offer was no longer desired.
I was at an age to understand desire.
Sitting in a darkened theater with strangers
watching people live on screen, larger than ourselves,
real but not real, and at the same time
to feel someone’s hand brush my own, accidentally or no–
their shoulder press into mine as they shifted in their seat,
breath warm on my neck gave me more than a taste
for intimacy. To be watched like that, to touch and be
touched all at once until the body and the image
of the body fused. In that cavernous stupor
even the way I dreamed was changed forever.
Like the magician’s assistant that disappears
into a cabinet than reappears in another
part of the theater, I left my seat in the dark,
mingled with the dust in the funnel of light and
created myself in my own image on the screen.
Before arc light and electric bulbs, the lantern’s glow
came from an oxygen and hydrogen flame fixed
on a cylinder of lime. Combustible, surely, but the illusion
blazed brighter! To be in limelight is to become incandescent
in the alchemy of dangerous gas and mineral, to smolder
in another’s mind or heart. I would have risked setting
myself on fire, if it meant the world could see me better.

But that was before I knew better.

Dissipation

Even snakes tremble in this land of trembling
earth where cloaked in the Okefenokee

a man stands on an alligator’s back and prays
it is a dream. His or another’s.

He knows, a foot lifts off — a heel strays just a bit
and the stupefied is supper. The alligator

doesn’t move a breath, and the man wonders
if he’s sleeping. It doesn’t matter; the hand’s

been dealt; an alligator’s eyelids are windows,
and the man wears an alligator belt.

Frogs’ throated dirge, the whir
and thrum of insects quarrel in

the man’s ears, beat his drums until he’s
dizzy. It’s curious, his thoughts don’t run

to a wife, grandbabies, what’s left undone.
Instead he thinks of alligators

that climb ladders then swoosh belly down
a slide, one after another, glide into a pool

at a roadside reptile playground. Eyes
devoid of joy, despite the frolic. Like exotic

dancers, the man remembers. It’s best
to ignore their gaze, sluggish and bored.

Books

Teri Grimm's first book explores the duality of her southern roots.

Teri Grimm’s first book explores the duality of her southern roots.